Changes- David Bowie

"Time may change me, but I can't trace time."

So, obviously writing a post every single day is near impossible for me in this time of my life.  No problem, I'll just write a post every once and a while when I get the time.  So, if you are upset that the format is changing, or that I am going against my word, calm your tits.  I have a life, sue me. 

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David Bowie is fantastic.  Super eccentric, seems like he should be an trany, but awesome.   I lurve him.

Still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets and
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
Turn and face the strange
(Ch-ch-Changes)
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
Turn and face the strange
(Ch-ch-Changes)
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence
So the days float through my eyes
But stil the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They're quite aware of what they're going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
Turn and face the strange
(Ch-ch-Changes)
Don't tell them to grow up and out of it
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
Turn and face the stranger
(Ch-ch-Changes)
Where's your shame
You've left us up to our necks in it
Time may change me
But you can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me
Ah changes are taking the pace I'm going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-Changes
Oh, look out you rock 'n rollers
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-Changes
Pretty soon now you're gonna get older
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
I said that time may change me
But I can't trace time

21 @ 12- Hot Hot Heat

"And on this night in a border town, you'll wave goodbye to your father's son"

I am turning 21 at midnight! So EXCITED.  BAH most of my friends are 2 years older than me so, this has been much awaited.  AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

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I loooooove Hot Hot Heat.  They disappeard a few years ago, which sucked because they are amazing. Catchy. Love it.

Let's be honest, we're all criminals here so take the halo down
Autograph hunters making legends out of scumbags from a better town
21 at midnight, it's a curse of a man who'd kill to put it off
Wrestling grizzly bears just to draw a crowd 

A crowd that would have jumped at dogs

When you're 21 at midnight you act like a man
Look him in the eyes and say what you just said to me then
21 at midnight
Your tombstone in hand
You fight so hard to give away for free what you'll just want again 

A virtual who's-who of the who-cares, the self appointed king and queen
Better off jester rather tame the troops than fertilize the village green
hey I knew you back in 1999, I know you don't forget
Obligations plague you still why can't you shed em yet?

When you're 21 at midnight you act like a man
Look him in the eyes and say what you just said to me then
21 at midnight
Your tombstone in hand
You fight so hard to give away for free what you'll just want again
You'll just want again

And on this night in a border town
you'll wave goodbye to your father's son
And on this night in a drunken brawl
you'll say hello to your poor child's father
Who's 21 at midnight

He thinks he's a man
Look him in the eyes and say what you just said to me then
21 at midnight
Your tombstone in hand
You fight so hard to give away for free what you will just want again
What you will just want again

Make Me Proud- Drake

"I know things get hard, but girl you got it."

I am so proud of myself.  I love who I am. I love where I am.  I love who I love and am proud to love.  I am everything I want to be. 

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I wasn't a huge Drake fan until this song came out.  I now realize that he may the Y-chromosome to represent women in a POSITIVE way.  There is no reason I should feel ashamed for my morals of not sleeping with the first guy I see or going to school.  And Drake reminds me of this.

I like a woman with a future and a past
A little attitude problem all good it'll make the shit last
Don't make it too easy girl, don't take it too fast
Yeah, that's it, right there, that's it
Do it just like that
Only you could it just like that
And I love it when your hair's still wet
Cause you just took a shower
Running on a treadmill and only eating salad
Sounds so smart, like you graduated college
Like you went to yale, but you probably went to Howard
Knowing you, weekend in miami, tryna study by the pool
Couple things due, but you always get it done
Might have been a time when I loved her too
But you take that away, you always be the one
One, I wonder why the moon looks nice girl
Maybe it's just right for the night
You said niggas coming on too strong girl
They want you in their life as a wife
That's why you wanna have no sex
Why you wanna protest, why you wanna fight for your right
Cause you don't love them boys
Pussy run everything, fuck that noise

I know things get hard
But girl you got it, girl you got it there you go
Can't you tell by how they looking at you everywhere you go
Wondering what's on your mind, it must be hard to be that fine,
When all these motherfuckas wanna waste your time
It's just amazing, girl, and all I can say is...

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back
That's why you're bad as fuck and you...

B-b-b-bad I am
All of them bitches I'm better than
Mansions in Malibu babblin
But I never mention everything I dabble in
And I always ride slow when I'm straddlin'
And my shit's so wet you gotta paddle in
Gotta ro-ro-row, gotta row ya boat
It's Pink Friday records and OVO
Done did the pop tour, I'm the realest deal,
The best legal team so the deals is ill
It's Mac, OPI and a fragrance too
Apparel, I'm dominating every avenue
Cobblestone, good view, lil gravel too
Gotta pay for the entourage travel too
Cause I'm fli-fli-fly, I'm flying high
Ain't got time to talk, just Hi and bye bitch

And baby if you ask me to take a break
I'll give it all away, don't care what the people say
I'll be a million, billion, trillion miles away

He asked my sign, I said a Sagg'
I'm a star, Sheriff badge,
What's the point? If I'm guardin'
Double D up hoes, Dolly Parton

I know things get hard
But girl you got it, girl you got it there you go
Can't you tell by how they're looking at you everywhere you go
Wondering what's on your mind, it must be hard to be that fine, when all these muthafuckas wanna waste your time
It's just amazing, girl, and all I can say is...

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back
That's why you're bad as fuck and you know you are

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so proud of you
Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back
That's why you're bad as fuck and you know you are

1-1: New Year's Prayer- Jeff Buckley

1-2: Call Me- Blondie

1-3: Airplanes- Local Natives

1-4: Just One More Day- Otis Redding

1-5: Can't Wait to See You- Evan Bliss and the Welchers

1-6: Here (In Your Arms)- Hellogoodbye

1-7: Here it Goes Again- OK Go

1-8: Sunday Morning- Maroon 5

1-9: Back to School- Of Montreal

1-10: Happy Birthday Baby- Rich McCulley

1-11: I Gotta Love- Taddy Porter

1-12: Mission (A World Record)- Electric Light Orchestra

1-13: Friday the 13th- Everlast

1-14: Greek Song- Rufus Wainwright

1-15: Beauty and the Beast- Angela Landsbury

1-16: Home- Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

1-17: Up Up Up- Givers

1-18: When Did Your Heart Go Missing- Rooney

1-19: I Kissed a Girl- Katy Perry

1-20: Tango Til They're Sore- Tom Waits

1-21: Phoenix- Yeasayer

1-22: If You Knew- Jeff Buckley

1-23: Little Hell- City and Colour

1-24: Faith- George Michael

1-25: She Moves in Her Own Way- The Kooks

1-26: White Houses- Vanessa Carlton

1-27: You are the Best Thing- Ray LaMontagne

1-28: Alive with the Glory of Love- Say Anything

1-29: Can You Kiss Me First- College

1-30: Take a Picture- Filter

1-31: I Don't Want to Know- Fleetwood Mac



American Girl- Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

"Well, she was an American girl raised on promises"


I want my stuff back.  My ex has my stuff, stuff that includes my American Girl Tom Petty shirt.  I want my Tom Petty shirt, and my toothbrush, and my PJ shorts, and my plate.  Yes, I left a plate over there.  And I want it back.  And guess what, I'm supposed to get this stuff from him soon and when I was thinking about it in my car, all of a sudden this song came on. IT WAS LIKE FATE.  I'm supposed to get my stuff back soon.  Plus, what is he going to do with a small tshirt and short shorts?

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This is my all time favorite Tom Petty song.  It is also one of my favorite songs of all time.  I can't help but smile when I hear it.  My sister knew this was one of favorites and when she made a slide show for my graduation, she put this in the background.  So perfect. 

Well she was an American girl
Raised on promises
She couldn't help thinking that there
Was a little more to life
Somewhere else
After all it was a great big world
With lots of places to run to
Yeah, an d if she had to die
Tryin' she had one little promise
She was gonna keep


Oh yeah, all right
Take it easy baby
Make it last all night
She was an American girl


It was kind of cold that night
She stood alone on her balcony
She could the cars roll by
Out on 441
Like waves crashing in the beach
And for one desperate moment there
He crept back in her memory
God it's so painful
Something that's so close
And still so far out of reach


Oh yeah, all right
Take it easy baby
Make it last all night
She was an American girl

11-8: Lover You Should've Come Over- Jeff Buckley

11-9: Have a Little Faith in Me- John Hiatt

11-10: Long Time- Cake

11-11: The Luckiest- Ben Folds

11-12: One Month Later- We Drive Yeah!

11-13: Virgin- Manchester Orchestra

11-14: Back in Your Head- Tegan and Sara

11-15: Everything Falls into Place- Frank Bell

11:16- Sick, Sick, Sick- Queens of the Stone Age

11:17- Everybody Here Wants You- Jeff Buckley

11-18: Junk of the Heart (Happy)- The Kooks

11-19: Call Your Girlfriend- Robyn

11-20- Eet- Regina Spektor

11-21: Beautiful Girl- William Fitzsimmons

11-22: Let Them Know- Sam Cornwell and John Davies

11-23: Walking on a Dream- Empire of the Sun

11-24: Cold Turkey- Lenny Kravitz

11-25: Black- Pearl Jam

11-26: Gone With the Wind- Ella Fitzgerald

11-27: Back to You- Coconut Records

11-28: New Slang- The Shins

11-30: Trust- Generationals

12-1: Next to Me: Civil Twilight

12-2: Dreaming of You- The Coral

12-3: Gotta Get Through This- Daniel Bedingfield

12-4: Electric Feel- MGMT

12-5: Molly's Chambers- Kings of Leon

12-6: Islands- The xx

12-7: Callbacks- We Are Scientists

12-8: Whatever Haunts You- Taddy Porter

12-9: Immigrant Song- Led Zeppelin

12-10: Party Rock Anthem- LMFAO

12-11: Clean- Incubus

12-12: The Hand that Feeds- Nine Inch Nails

12-13: The Final Countdown- Europe

12-14: Business Time- Flight of the Conchords

12-15: Stay (Wasting Time)- Dave Matthews Band

12-16: You Wonderful You- Gene Kelly

12-17: Donald Trump- Mac Miller

12-18: Unpretty- TLC

12-19: Drive- Incubus

12-20: Hawaiian Air- Friendly Fires

12-21: Home- Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

12-22: I Don't Want to Leave- Matthew Perryman Jones

12-23: Work Me- Black Keys

12-24: Boy- Ra Ra Riot

12-25: Merry Christmas Baby- Bruce Springsteen

12-26: Stay Away- Rooney

12-27: Trophy Wife- The National

12-28: Reviens- Garou

12-29: Shopping- Pet Shop Boys

12-30: Zoo- Ani Difranco

12-31: Same Auld Lang Syne- Dan Fogelberg

Your Ex-Lover is Dead- Stars

"Live through this, and you won't look back."

Hey guys! So Sorry it has been FOREVER since I have posted.  Life got in the way.  A little catch-up: I was in my school's production of Oklahoma! and made a lot of new friends, I got a new job this week, and my boyfriend and I broke up.  Now, before you expect me to be sobbing my eyes looking for sympathy, realize I am a very happy person who refuses to wallow in sorrow or breakups.  It sucked.  I won't lie about that, but it wasn't the relationship I wanted either.  I fell in love, he didn't, and that's something neither of us can control.  I don't regret anything.  I don't look at his pictures and cry or wish we were back together.  I don't want him to change for me nor I to change for him. I don't want him. I would take back the good times, but the relationship took a downward spiral this semester and there was no way back up.  I look back at it as a happy memory, instead of a tragic failure, and cry more for what I went through during the bad last few weeks of the relationship than for actually breaking up.  I will always love him, but I am no longer in love with him.  Plus, the breakup was honest and we continue to be open and talk to each other about it.  It may have not been successful in love, but it was successful in respect.  I don't need him to love me. I just need him to care, and from what I can see, he does. 

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This song pretty much sums up the moving on part of breaking up.  It is positive but still recognizing what that person was to them.  I will never forget who he was to me, but he is longer that person for me anymore.  He is new to me, as am I, and we must now move on with our new friendship with maturity and dignity. 

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love

Live through this, and you won't look back
Live through this, and you won't look back
Live through this, and you won't look back

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to say

I'm not sorry there's nothing to say