Your Ex-Lover is Dead- Stars

"Live through this, and you won't look back."

Hey guys! So Sorry it has been FOREVER since I have posted.  Life got in the way.  A little catch-up: I was in my school's production of Oklahoma! and made a lot of new friends, I got a new job this week, and my boyfriend and I broke up.  Now, before you expect me to be sobbing my eyes looking for sympathy, realize I am a very happy person who refuses to wallow in sorrow or breakups.  It sucked.  I won't lie about that, but it wasn't the relationship I wanted either.  I fell in love, he didn't, and that's something neither of us can control.  I don't regret anything.  I don't look at his pictures and cry or wish we were back together.  I don't want him to change for me nor I to change for him. I don't want him. I would take back the good times, but the relationship took a downward spiral this semester and there was no way back up.  I look back at it as a happy memory, instead of a tragic failure, and cry more for what I went through during the bad last few weeks of the relationship than for actually breaking up.  I will always love him, but I am no longer in love with him.  Plus, the breakup was honest and we continue to be open and talk to each other about it.  It may have not been successful in love, but it was successful in respect.  I don't need him to love me. I just need him to care, and from what I can see, he does. 

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This song pretty much sums up the moving on part of breaking up.  It is positive but still recognizing what that person was to them.  I will never forget who he was to me, but he is longer that person for me anymore.  He is new to me, as am I, and we must now move on with our new friendship with maturity and dignity. 

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love

Live through this, and you won't look back
Live through this, and you won't look back
Live through this, and you won't look back

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to say

I'm not sorry there's nothing to say