Night Watch- Tegan and Sara

"I've got grounds for recourse"

There was a point today where I was about to go insane. I'm doing much better now but for a while there I was about to blow up on anyone.  I didn't get much sleep, I was helping mom, which is understandable, but still frustrating.  Also, my dad came in really late to see my mom, and when he got here, he was badgering her with questions and wouldn't leave her alone to just rest.  He tends to panic.  So, I was really getting on my last nerve.  Luckily, I went to lunch and felt better, got away for a while.



http://gemmer.glogster.com/running-away/

 For some reason, I always get Tegan and Sara confused with Shiny Toy Guns.  I guess it's the fact that they have girl singers.  But, overall, I like Tegan and Sara much better.

I've got grounds for divorce
It's in my blood this divorce
I seperate everybody, I need distance from your body
Oh I deserve this anguish on my house

So get away, you cannot follow me
I get away, you cannot follow me
So get away, you cannot follow me
So get away, you cannot follow me
I get away

I've got grounds for recourse
Your lungs fill with discourse
You seperate from my body, you need consistence from somebody
Oh I deserve this angusih on my house

So get away, you cannot follow me
I get away, you cannot follow me
So get away, you cannot follow me
I get away, you cannot follow me
So get away, you cannot follow me
I get away, you cannot follow me
So get away

 

Lullaby- Shawn Mullins

"She'd be a whole lot prettier if she smiled once in a while"

My mom's surgery went very well, thankfully.  She is doing pretty awesome, a lot better than I did when I had a similar surgery.  She is sleeping a lot. That's the easy part.  Tomorrow is probably not going to be the best though.  Lots of hard steps in recovery.  Well I should get my rest. 

http://weheartit.com/tag/sarah%20shoo

This song reminds me of childhood.  It came out when I was pretty young.  But, it is what it says it is, a soothing lullaby.  Love how he kind of talks the verses. 

She grew up with the children of the stars

 in the Hollywood hills and the boulevard
Her parents threw big parties, everyone was there
They hung out with folks like Dennis Hopper, Bob Seeger, and Sonny and Cher
But she feels safe now in the bar on Fairfax
And from the stage I can tell that she can't let go and she can't relax
And just before she hangs her head to cry,
I sing to her a lullaby

I sing everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye

She still lives with her mom outside the city
Down that street about a half a mile
And all her friends tell her she's so pretty
But she'd be a whole lot prettier if she smiled once in a while
'cause even her smile looks like a frown
She's seen her share of devils in this angel town

Everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye

I told her I ain´t so sure about this place
It's hard to play a gig in this town and keep a straight face
Seems like everybody´s got a plan
It's kind of like Nashville with a tan but

Everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
Everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
bye, bye

 

King Without a Crown- Matisyahu

"You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest"

My mom is having a pretty big surgery tomorrow.  It's actually pretty similar to the one I went through actually, but I'm more nervous for her than I was for my own.  I guess it's because she is the most important thing in my life and I can't imagine a life without here if anything happens.  I'm pretty close with my mom can't you tell? lol well anywho, I feel like this surgery is going to go well but I still am a tadbit worried.  I guess we will just have to see.

http://tooelemarketing.com/2011/03/building-trust-and-confidence-a-foundation-of-marketing/

Matisyahu is so cool!!! A Jewish reggae rapper? Unheard of! SO I needed to find a good uplifting song about putting your faith in God, and this one is pretty much up there.  AH I love reggae.

You're all that I have and you're all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know your peace
I want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry
You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me
You're the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I'll stand on my own two feet
Won't be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin' up all through till twilight
Said thank you to my God, now I finally got it right
And I'll fight with all of my heart, and all of my soul, and all of my might

What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now, time we start revealing
What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now

Strippin’ away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you're trying to stay high, bound to stay low
You want God but you can't deflate your ego
If you're already there then there's nowhere to go
If you're cup's already full then its bound to overflow
If you're drowning in the water's and you can't stay afloat
Ask Hashem for mercy, and he'll throw you a rope
You're looking for help from God you say he couldn't be found
Searching up to the sky and looking beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
You keep fallin' down
You really want to live but can't get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and then you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
Nullified to the One like sunlight in a ray,
Makin' room for his love and a fire gone blaze
Makin' room for his love and a fire gone blaze

What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now, time we start revealing
What's this feeling?
My love will rip a whole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now

See I lift up my eyes where my help come from
And I seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!
You feel it in your chest
You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest
You're not vexed
Look to the sky where my help come from
Seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!
You feel it in your chest
You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest
You're not vexed

 

6-24: Cat's in the Cradle- Harry Chapin



6-25: Banquet- Bloc Party 



Morning Theft- Jeff Buckley

"Time takes care of the wound so I can believe"

I saw a very close friend today that I thought I had lost forever.  We had a really weird falling out and I truly believed I would never see him again. But I saw him at work and it wasn't awkward at all! Just like the old days.  It's amazing how things can prove you wrong.

http://blog.addictinggames.com/2010/05/top-5-friday-games-my-friends-play/

This song is perfect for my friend and I.  I have always associated this song with him.  It just really fits our situation.  Plus, it is one of my favorite Jeff Buckley songs.  The lyrics are amazing, it is so beautiful.

Time takes care of the wound so I can believe
You had so much to give, you thought I couldn't see
Gifts for boot heels to crush, promises deceived
I had to send it away to bring us back again
Your eyes and body brighten silent waters, deep
Your precious daughter in the other room, asleep
A kiss "Goodnight" from every stranger that I meet
I had to send it away to bring us back again
Morning theft, and pretender left, ungrateful

True self is what brought you here to me
A place where we can accept this love
Friendship battered down by useless history
Unexamined failure

What am I still to you
Some thief who stole from you
Or some fool drama queen whose chances were few
Love brings us to who we need
a place where we can save
A heart that beats as both siphon and reservoir
You're a woman, I'm a calf
You're a window, I'm a knife
We come together making chance into starlight

Meet me tomorrow night, or any day you want
I have no right to wonder just how, or when
And though the meaning fits, there's no relief in this
I miss my beautiful friend
I had to send it away to bring her back again

Tick of Time- The Kooks

"Get off this situation and feel fine"

So, I was listening to the Konk album by the Kooks the other day and it made me totally fall right back into love with them.  I think they are so underrated.  They are a great band.  Yeah, sure, sometimes their lyrics are a little lacking, but their melodies and musical directions are so catchy and great.  I really miss hearing from them. Apparently, they have another album coming out this fall.  Hopefully, it will be great.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/moslive/article-463714/The-Kooks-Like-rolling-stone.html

This song is my favorite on the album.  It's really simple with only a few instruments but it's really catchy.  I think there are two singers in this which makes it even more interesting.  I really want to do this song in my band.

Oh honey please, don't shed no tears
As long as im here


It's far too early in the morning to be trying to call you
And far too early in the daytime to be thinking about that


But I, (but I), but I, (but I), but I am


What did I do in a past life, oh to deserve this
Yeah the way I make myself
He's far too innocent to be a part of such a cruel world
And it is, and it is and it is


And so I'll go, yes I'll go, so I'll take that train and ride
Hoping I can write her a rhyme, that might stop the tick of time
Get off this situation and feel fine
Get off this situation and feel fine


What did I do to deserve her love
I have to ask myself

When I am such a bad man but only to her (only to her, only, only to her)


Oh and so I'll go, yes I'll go, so I'll take that train and ride
Oh and so I'll go, yes I'll go, so I'll take that train and ride
Wishing, hoping I can write her a rhyme, that might stop the tick of time
Get off this situation and feel fine
Get off this situation and feel fine

What Will You Say?- Jeff Buckley

"I can feel my time crawling to a slow end"

So, the verdict is in, Penn Badgley will be playing Jeff in the biopic.  I don't really know how I feel about it.  I mean, I'm happy it's not Robert Pattinson, only because I don't want this movie to be famous just because a heartthrob is starring in it.  That might take away from the whole point of the movie.  But, I have no idea how Penn Badgley will do.  He seems super psyched for it, I guess that's a good sign.  We will just have to see. I'm a little upset about the storyline though.  It's of his life up to the concert in honor of his dad, Greetings from Tim Buckley. Actually, that is also the title of the movie.  I wanted the movie to be more about Grace, I mean, his dad didn't really care about him, why should we name Jeff's biopic about someone who didn't care for Jeff. Seems a little off.  Also, there seems to be another biopic in the works, by Jake Scott and produced by Jeff's mom.  I think Reeve Carney should be up for it.  He sounds just like Jeff.  OR James Franco, the original contender.  Oh, and I also heard that the musical The Last Goodbye which is like Romeo and Juliet but with JBuck music may be heading to Broadway.   Why the recent trend in JBuck?  It's not like his legacy hasn't been around for the past 15 years.  I'm a little concerned for all this attention.  It's great that he is finally getting recognized for his genius, but I don't want him to becom a franchise.  He is too good for that, and wouldn't have wanted that.

http://www.thisheartsonfire.com/?p=2682

This is a great song, just like all his other songs.  I really like it though because it mentions his mother and father.  It's one of the only songs that really address his issues with his dad Tim Buckley.  Plus, the note progressions are amazing.  Great song.

It's been such a long time
And I was just a child then
What will you say
When you see my face?
Time feels like it's flown away
The days just pass and fade away
What will you say
When they take my place?

It's funny now
I just don't feel like I'm a man
What will you say
When you see my face?
My face

Mother dear, the world's gone cold
No one cares about love anymore
What will you say
When you see my face?

Father do you hear me?
Do you know me?
Do you even care?
What will you say
When they take my place?

My heart can't take this anymore
What will you say
When you see my face?
When you see my
See my face

I can feel your time crawling
To a slow end
I can feel my time crawling
To a slow end

Mother dear, the world's gone cold
No one cares about love anymore
What will you say
When you see my face?

Father do you hear me?
Do you know me?
Did you even care?
What will you say
When you take my place?

Well it's so funny now
I just don't feel like I'm a man
What will you say?

 

Bluebird- Sara Bareilles

"Was glad at the time that I'd said I was fine, but all honesty knows, I wasn't ready"

I was reminiscing today when look at pictures from a few months ago.  Funny how that happens sometimes.  I think sometimes it's possible that God sends you messages through music when you are thinking of something.  I was listening to my windows media player, not itunes (I think apple is a conspiracy, don't get me started) and this perfect song came up when I was reminiscing.  I got the hint.

http://www.christianhand.org/photo.html

This song is so precious. And I like that it's really hopeful.  Most songs about reminiscing are really somber and always wish to go back to the "old days" but this song accepts that it's time to let it go.  Also, her voice is so pretty. Love her.

Word came through in a letter
One of us changing our minds
You won't need to guess who, since I usually do
Not send letters to me that are mine

Told you I saw this coming
That I'd practically packed up my things
Was glad at the time that I'd said I was fine but
All honesty knows, I wasn't ready, no

And so here we go bluebird
Back to the sky on your own
Oh let him go bluebird
Ready to fly
You and I
Here we go
Here we go

This pair of wings worn and rusted
Like a carnival ride in the rain
They can carry me swear to be
Sturdy and strong but see
Turning them on still causes me pain

Leave my love in a letter
Went to the best on your side
Fine gathered my things, I'll make the best of these wings
And me and my bird take to the sky

And so here we go bluebird
Gather your strength and rise up
Oh let him go bluebird
Oh let him go bluebird
Oh let him go bluebird
Ready to fly
You and I
Here we go
Here we go



No Sleep- Sam Roberts

"I'm too young to be old"

I didn't get practically any sleep last night because there was a huge thunderstorm outside.  So bad that I actually saw a lightning bolt hit something and make tons of sparks. Freaked me out! It probably had the loudest hail I have ever heard.  And the worst part.....I had to get up at 7 for work.  BUT (here's the killer) my alarm didn't go off! Yeah, woke up an hour late and had only 40 mins to get ready (I don't like to be rushed.) So, a pretty bad morning, I'd say.

http://gccweb.gccaz.edu/earthsci/imagearchive/lightning.htm

I just found this song.  Sam Roberts is a Canadian singer/songwriter and I'm thinking I may become a fan.  This song kind of has a bluesy feel to it but also very indie.  Pretty cool combo.  Plus, who can't love the French at the end!!!???

No sleep
I haven’t slept for a week
And I’m cold
Yeah I’m so cold
She’s right
I should do something with my life
But I’m old, I’m old, I’m getting old

Those eyes
She said they don’t recognize me
Those lips
They’re never calling my name

It feels so heavy
Feels so heavy, heavy
I’m waiting for a Saturday
Waiting for a Saturday
And I’m too young to be old

Une fille, Jolie
Passé tout près de moi
Elle arrêtait le temps
Au coin de Ste-Catherine et St-Laurent

It feels so heavy
Feels so heavy, heavy
I’m waiting for a Saturday
Waiting for a Saturday
And I’m too young to be old

Elle me regardait
Et elle souriait
Elle m'a fait penser à rien en ce moment
Et comme le vent elle s’en allait
Et moi je suis réveillé
Oui moi je suis réveillé

 

Home- Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

I love my hometown.  For the past two days, my town has had a River Jam (we live right off the river) where there is live music, carny food, and arts and crafts.  I love it.  We have about 3-4 of these festivals in the summer and then a few during the early fall.  I just love how much integrity and pride my hometown has.  We love our town and community and will never let it become something we wouldn't brag about lol. I plan on living here for the rest of my life.

http://kcdailydosephotos.blogspot.com/2010_08_01_archive.html

I have loved this song since last summer.  I heard it first on the way to the hospital where I was going to have a major surgery and it just calmed me down.  It has always held a special place in my heart just for that reason.  I was disappointed and shocked to hear that the lead singer's name is actually Alexander and not Edward.  Freaked me out.  Anywho, I love everything about this song, the whistling, the duet (so rare these days), the silly lyrics, the dialogue in the middle, the featured piano and brass, everything.  Such a GREAT song, and great album, I may add.

Alabama Arkansas, I do love my Ma and Pa
But not as much as I do love you
Holy moly me oh my, your the apple of my eye
Girl ain't never loved one like you
Man o Man your my best friend I scream it to the nothingness
that we got everything we need
Hot and heavy, pumpkin pie
Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ
Ain't nothin please me more than you

Home, let me come home
Home is whenever I'm with you
Home, yes I am home
Home is wherever I'm with you

Lalalala, take me home
Mama I'm coming fome

I follow you into the park, through the jungle through the dark
Girl ain't never loved one like you
Moats and boats and waterfalls, alleyways and payphone calls
I been everywhere with you, that's true
Laugh until we think we'll die, barefoot on a summer night
never could be sweeter than with you

And in the streets, you're running free
like it's only you and me jade/ebes your somethin to see

Home, let me come home
Home is whenever I'm with you
Home, yes I am home
Home is wherever I'm with you

Lalalala take me home
Mama I'm comin home

Jade?

Alexander. 

You remember that night you fell outa my window?
I sure do, you came jumpin out after me
Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, and you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you to the hospital, you remember that?
Yes I do
Well, there's somethin I never told you about that night
What didn't you tell me?
well, while you were sitting in the back seat smokin a cigarrette you thought was gona be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you til just now
Aww

Home, let me come home
Home is whenever I'm with you
Home, yes I am home
Home is wherever I'm with you

Home, let me come home, home is wherever I'm with you
Home, yes I am home, home is whenever I'm with you

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my Ma and Pa

Moats and boat and waterfalls, alleyways and payphone calls
Yes home, yes ward, home is whenever I'm with you

Home is whenever I'm with you

Ah home, let me go home

Home is wherever I'm alone with you

Ah home, let me go home

Home is where I'm alone with you

Oh No You Didn't- Wojahn Brothers

"Fool tried to diss me"

I met the rudest person at work today.  She talked down to me like was her servant or something.  Get off your high horse and realize that you are an idiot.  She refused to get shredded lettuce in a bag even though the shredded lettuce on the salad bar is only for the taco bar portion.  There is maybe only 2 cups of it on the whole bar.  Why the hell would you try to get a ton of shredded lettuce from that.  I told her we didn't have anymore in the back, but she wouldn't have that.  Gosh, she is so dumb.

http://www.terrysdiary.com/post/806727605/steve-o-oh-no-you-didnt

I just discovered this song. Apparently it's the theme to a video game, whatevs, it's pretty funny.  I love songs like these where it is a total contradiction between the genre of the song and the lyrics. Hilarious.  It's also a pretty awesome song with a lot of cool vocal harmonies. 

Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Yo, yo, yo
Oh no you didn't!

Sucka tried to play me but you never paid me, never
Oh no you didn't!
Payback is a-commin' you will be runnin' forever
Oh no you didn't!
Until I get my vengence, I will never end this, mayhem
Oh no you didn't!
I'm a mercanary, you ain't gotta prayer, you owe me!
Oh no you didn't!

Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Didn't you oh no
You didn't pay me what you owe me
So now it's over for you

Bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba, ba ba ba
Yeah
Bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba, baba bapa bapa ba, ba ba ba
Yo yo, check it out
Oh no you didn't!

First you tried to trapt me, then you bust a cap in my ass
Oh no you didn't!
Such humiliation will bring annihilation at last
Oh no you didn't!
It will be delicious when I get vicious tomorrow
Oh no you didn't!
There's no second chances, you will the dance of sorrow
Oh no you didn't!

Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Didn't you oh no
You didn't pay me what you owe me
So now it's over for you

Bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba,

What a fool,ba ba ba
Bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba, bapa bapa bapa ba, ba ba ba
Alright, come on
Oh no you didn't!

Better watch your back boy, keep runnin'
This ain't just a game, I never stop commin'
I got my arsenal
I put out the call
And when I'm finished y'all
You'll be a rag doll

Fool tried to diss me, now you're gonna wish you were dead
Oh no you didn't!
After I deliver your blood will be a river of red
Oh no you didn't!
Better be aware when no one's there to defend you
Oh no you didn't!
So many ways to kill, it's gonna be a thrill to end you
Oh no you didn't!

Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Oh no you didn't
Didn't you oh no
You didn't pay me what you owe me
So now it's over for you

Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no you didn't!

Oh Phoney- Morrissey

"May this lovely letter reach its destination"

I found out that a very close friend of mine told all of our other friends last year that she didn't like me.  I'm not exactly quite sure when she told them this but it doesn't make any sense.  They said she said she didn't like me because I apparently always wanted to be around her.  Wow, get over yourself.  Plus, I only saw her 3 times after the spring semester for the rest of the year so I really think she is over exaggerating.  And then, when I came back this year for the spring semester, she was the one initiating all the times we hung out.  I feel so betrayed.  I'm not mad that she didn't/doesn't like me, that's her prerogative. What makes me mad is that she had to tell all of our mutual friends, but not me, and then string me along and act like we are still friends.  I wouldn't have fought so much to keep our friendship if I knew it was such a waste of time.  I don't read minds and can't fix anything if I don't know I'm doing something "wrong."

http://www.gurl.com/quizzes/take/89/0/2/0

Ugh. So, this song is spot on.  Morrissey is amazing, loved the smiths, love him solo, whatevs, awesome all around. He always creates such weird melodies but they work super well. Plus, he voice is so distinctive and his sound is so quintessentially 80s alternative. 

May this lovely letter
reach its destination
if only
Question one is why do you
pretend that you like me?
Oh Phoney
See how the outside
contradicts what's inside 

Ooo, Who can make Hitler
seem like a bus conductor?
You do, oh Phoney you do

You sing a lovely song to a scale
and the words spell out my name
Oh Phoney
but then you kick me down below
cause you know it won't show
How could you?
See how the outside
contradicts what's inside

Ooo, Who can make Hitler
seem like a bus conductor?
you do oh Phoney oh Phoney you do
you do oh Phoney oh Phoney you do
you do oh Phoney oh Phoney you do

The Tide is High- Blondie

"I'm gonna be your number one"

My town is about to flood.  My poor little town.  The flood of 93 devestated us, and this seems like it is going to be just as bad.  They have taken more precautions than in 93, but I still think the cutest part of town is going to flood. Sad day. 

http://www.thedailygreen.com/weird-weather/weather-categories/pictures/4311

Blondie is awesome.  Debbie Harry was one of the coolest rockers of all time.  She was so pretty and yet so rock and roll.  Love it.  This isn't my favorite Blondie song, but it's appropriate for the occasion.

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

I'm not the kinda girl who gives up just like that, oh no
It's not the things you do that tease and hurt me bad

Ooo, but it's the way you do the things you do to me
I'm not the kinda girl who gives up just like that, oh no

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

Number one
Number one

Every girl wants you to be her man

Ooo, but I'll wait, my dear, 'till it's my turn
I'm not the kinda girl who gives up just like that, oh no

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one
Number one
Number one

Every girl wants you to be her man

Ooo, but I'll wait, my dear, 'till it's my turn
I'm not the kinda girl who gives up just like that, oh no

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one
Number one
Number one
Number one

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one, your number one

6-14: Sex on Fire- Nakia

The Freshman- The Verve Pipe

"We never talk of our lack in relationships"

I went to my friend's house today to practice our band and we played quite a few songs that I didn't know the complete lyrics to lol. But we did find a few songs that I did know all the lyrics, so I guess that was progress! I would really like to work on original stuff but my friend seemed like he just wanted to play covers.  I will convince him to look at my songs sooner or later!

http://www.students.stedwards.edu/rkrause/

This song is so sad.  That's pretty obvious though.  The melody is so pretty yet the song has this overwhelming vulnerability.  It is so beautiful. 

When I was young I knew everything
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken, sobbin' with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice, no

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbin' with his head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

We've tried to wash our hands of all of this
We never talk of our lack in relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbin' with our heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip, we'd say

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

We were merely freshmen
We were only freshmen

 

The Sound of Settling- Death Cab for Cutie

"If you've got an impulse let it out"

I will never settle for what doesn't make me happy.  I know what I want in life and I can't respect myself if I search and find only second best.  I'm tired of having to explain my actions and decisions. I love myself and can only love myself if I am confident in who I am.  If I settle, that implies that I am not confident enough in myself to give myself the best.  Why would I want to live an incomplete life? I have been in several situations where settling seemed so much easier than dealing with the truth, but I chose to be happy instead. 

http://socarolinesays.wordpress.com/2011/05/02/choosing-happiness/

This song works out pretty good for how I feel today.  It's one of the only songs I like by Death Cab.  However, it is still overplayed. 

I've got a hunger
Twisting my stomach into knots
That my tongue has tied off

My brain's repeating
"If you've got an impulse let it out"
But they never make it past my mouth.

Bop ba,Bop ba, this is the sound of settling
Bop ba, Bop ba
Bop ba,Bop ba, this is the sound of settling
Bop ba, Bop ba

Our youth is fleeting
Old age is just around the bend
And I can't wait to go gray

And I'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say

Bop ba,Bop ba, this is the sound of settling
Bop ba, Bop ba.
Bop ba,Bop ba, this is the sound of settling
Bop ba, Bop ba
Bop ba,Bop ba, this is the sound of settling
Bop ba, Bop ba
Bop ba,Bop ba, this is the sound of settling
Bop ba, Bop ba

I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots

6-11: Girls- Beastie Boys

Candle in the Wind- Elton John

"The stars spell out your name"

I went to see the Princess Diana exhibit today and it is amazing.  I always loved her.  I was only 6 when she died but I remember exactly where I was, who was with me, and what was said.  She was so iconic to me, even as a 6 year old.  Plus, it also helps that she is my 23rd cousin lol.   Well, anywho, the exhibit was very beautiful and I am so happy I was able to see it.  It was so well done that I almost cried a few times.....and I don't cry. 

http://www.genderacrossborders.com/2009/10/24/princess-diana%E2%80%99s-death-%E2%80%93-media-trials/

I'm not actually too fond of this song.  It's alright.  But, it was written for her, so I figure it should be the song of the day.  It is a great tribute, though.

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Fast Car- Tracy Chapman

"I'd always hoped for better"

Nothing much happens in my life anymore, just work.  However, I work with one of my friends and he has inspired me to publish a post about him.  He graduated a year ago and still hasn't found a career job.   It is really starting to get to him.  He just mopes around the store.  I feel so sad for him.  This economy and unemployment really sucks. 

http://currentemployment.net/2009/08/unemployment-hearings-no-lawyer-required/

I love this song.  It is so hopeful in the beginning but then, towards the end, reality sets and she realizes her life isn't going anywhere with this guy.  The guitar riff is gorgeous, I love playing it on my guitar.  And her voice is so deep and soulful.  One of the few songs that make me want to cry.

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

6-7: Heartless- Dia Frampton





6-8: Simple Man- Lynyrd Skynyrd

California English- Vampire Weekend (Week in Review)

"Funny how that little college girl called language corrupt"


Work is making me really busy. Plus, I got a virus, so it's another week in review. I'm really concerned for the youth of America, well, at least the collapse of correct English.  It's amazing how people believe that "your" and "you're" mean the same thing.  I realize facebook isn't exactly the place to display your most correct grammar and exhibit huge words, but, come on, when you ask someone out, it would be nice to use "you" instead of "u." What also is sad is that my friends sometimes make fun of the huge words I use.  I'm sorry I'm educated and actually care about how I talk.

http://scriptshadow.blogspot.com/2011/04/comedy-theme-week-dumb-and-dumber.html

Again, another vampire weekend.  Vampire weekend is a very intelligent band that does use plenty of correct grammar, large words, and worldly, historical references. Plus they make fun of bad English.

Wouldn't ever gag you with a spoon, my only true love
Never really heard you speak that way, it's unworthy of
Funny how that little college girl called language corrupt
Funny how the other private schools had no Hapa Club


Someone took a trip before you came to ski in the Alps
Your father moved across the country
Just to sunburn his scalp
Contra Costa, Contra Mundum, contradict what I say
Living like the French Connection, but we'll die in LA


Blasted from a disconnected light switch
Through the condo that they'll never finish
Bounced across a Saudi satellite dish
And through your brain to California English


No one sits inside a freezing flat and stays there 'til May
Leafing through a stack of A-Zs to surf the UK
Waiting with the wind against your face
And gel in your hair
Shivering in little undershirts, but don't seem to care


Blasted from a disconnected light switch
Through the condo that they'll never finish
Bounced across a Saudi satellite dish
And through your brain to California English


Sweet carob rice cake
She don't care how the sweets taste
Fake Philly cheese steak
But she use real toothpaste


Cause if that Tom's don't work
If it just makes you worse
Would you loose all of your faith in the good Earth


And if it's all a curse
And we're just getting worse
Baby, please don't lose your faith in the good earth


Blasted from a disconnected light switch
Through the condo that they'll never finish
Bounced across a Saudi satellite dish
And through your brain to California English

Blasted from a disconnected light switch

Through the condo that they'll never finish

Bounced across a Saudi satellite dish

And through your brain to California English

6-2: Time- Pink Floyd

6-3: Closing Time- Semisonic



6-4: Closer to Fine- Indigo Girls



6-5: Birthday- The Beatles



I'm So Sick- Flyleaf

"Let me live without this"

I'm sick.  I had to go home an hour into work today because I almost threw up and almost passed out.  I feel really guilty that I had to leave.  I hate disappointing people.  Hopefully I will be better by tomorrow.

http://missindiedesigns.blogspot.com/2011/04/sick-days.html

This song is ok.  I really don't have the energy to try to find another one.  This was the first song to pop into my mind. However, the girl, lead singer, she's got some lungs.  Good for her.

I will break, into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick
Infected with, where I live
Let me live without this
empty bliss

Selfishness
I'm so sick, I’m so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out

So you'll shut up, shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss
Selfishness
I'm so sick, I’m so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're hearing to it now

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
This invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss
Selfishness
I'm so... I'm so sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss
Selfishness
I'm so (I’m so) I'm so sick (I’m so sick)

I'm so (I’m so) I'm so sick (I’m so sick)